NOT A GOOD FRIEND

I have not been a good friend

Never wrote when I left

Lost your number and never saw you again till

Too many years later.

But you were still the same

So pretty,

So loving,

So gracious...

And I never knew

I would not see you again.

You asked me for help...

I did not know how then...

Said you were not feeling well...

And I dragged my feet...

Got caught in the busy swirl of doing my job...

And then when it was time... for a break and I could finally see you

I got a call and...

It was hard to imagine

That you were trully gone...

Well,

For a long time I did not know how to cry or what to think or what to feel

But my eyes are burning now and my tears are falling

And tho I will not get a second chance to tell you what I know now

Maybe someone close to you will read it

I want so much to tell you

That Jesus is next to you

Always waiting to make a new creation

When you think you can't make it

Jesus is next to you

Waiting for you to hear his voice



And it is only when I could be a really good friend

That I could have shared this with you

But I didn't